Life in a Fog

I often feel as though I'm living in a fog and do not experience full attentiveness in my everyday activities. I don't think this is the way I have always lived but is rather something of the past two or three years. And it isn't a constant state of mind but something that comes and goes. It makes me very sad at times, because I feel like life is just quickly passing me by and before I know it I will be old and won't know what in the world I did with my life. It's like I don't feel like I'm 100% present at certain times...and during most of those times I am just very tired and want to take a nap!

One of the most frustrating aspects of this haziness is not remembering important conversations held with people close to me. I shouldn't have to write down important things people confide in me, but sometimes I feel like I should so that I don't forget.

Another part I hate is my poor memory of big events. For example, someone may ask me what I did last weekend. Well, even if I went to a wedding, a fundraiser, or had jury duty, those big events don't come to my mind when asked, therefore, forcing me to answer with "I didn't do much." This may not seem like a big deal, but it is for me when I can't even remember what I just did, especially when they may be big things in my life.

I have several hypotheses for this fogginess:

• Lack of sleep
• Distracted by other thoughts/things
  
• Not genuinely interested in current activity...doing things in the present to achieve things in the future
• Tired...not due to sleep but just from over-exertion

I think it's a combination of all of the above. I don't know if this is a normal feeling or not, but whatever it is, I don't like it. I think ways to prevent this fogginess are to get more sleep and do more fun, social activities with my friends...both of which take TIME!

This state of mind isn't constant, by all means, but I think it is something I need to try to avoid by actively engaging in whatever I am doing.